Oh, so I forgot to let a good chunk of you know that I DO INDEED HAVE AN LJ FEED for the new blog. Right here.

Sorry about that. You can defriend ginger_feed and friend sparrowblog.

Well, since I have my own site, and unlimited server space and bandwidth and such…

I have migrated (with all of the posts and comments here) to sparrow.blog – I know, I know, I keep dragging you lot around, but I promise, I’m settled this time.

You know how at high school reunions, in the movies and stuff at any rate, there always seems to be the one person who didn’t really amount to anything?

I’m feeling like that’s me, right now.

I’ve been hearing a lot about people I used to go to school with, lately. Like my biffle from elementary school, Katie Crowell. Well, I now know thanks to my mother, she’s now Kate Williams, she lives in Carlsbad, and she has a pretty good business going for her. She went to college, she’s gotten awards, and she makes some pretty good money doing wedding photography – GORGEOUS wedding photography, at that.

And what am I doing? I’m 22, still don’t have my GED, never went to college, and the longest I’ve held down a job was for a week shy of a year at Walgreens. Making more than minimum wage, sure, but not by much. I want to sing and I want to act and I want to write, but as much as I don’t want to admit it, I’m really only barely this side of average on all three.

I have a roof over my head. I have someone who loves me, who I love more than life. I have friends who care about me. And I appreciate that SO FUCKING MUCH.

But I was raised to believe, though I KNOW it’s ridiculous, and it was never said in so many words, that people who drop out of high school and get GEDs are LOWER than high school graduates. High school graduates, and especially people who at least TRIED college, are BETTER. Which is ridiculously hypocritical of me, because anyone I know who has a GED and didn’t try college? I don’t give a shit. You do what you want, what makes you happy. If it was a financial thing, then how was it your fault? You’re no less smart or talented or awesome. But when it’s me, it’s different.

And I HATE it.

And I know that it’s my life and my choice and that just because I really dread the thought of going to college doesn’t make me a loser or less of a person or a failure, but… just for the moment? It feels like it does.

I’m going to go… cry for a while.

• 13:08 @reflectingsoul YOU CAN HAVE MINE! it likes to stop-and-go, but it rarely hurts. ♥ #
• 17:42 Just because stones are man-made doesn’t mean they can’t have good energy. Just a PSA there. #
• 19:28 @chibi_rizzy OMGWHATHAPPENED? #
• 21:36 @Gethenian *nod* not ALWAYS, but I’ve found some "man-made" have good energy. #
• 21:49 @Gethenian HEE. My favourite is a strawberry quartz, which is more just pretty-coloured glass than quartz. but it’s a GOOD STONE.- #
• 22:49 Fail, LJ. That was SO not scheduled. #
• 00:11 YAY, LJ! #

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Here, guys. Have a video of Will being ridiculous. And kind of gay.

• 17:18 @dreamsofstars you never post in your journal and she doesn’t like tweetspam. also you haven’t talked to her in ages. #
• 17:35 @dreamsofstars just saying, the way you responded was nearly identical to a former friend that really fucked her up. she’s upset. #
• 17:36 @dreamsofstars also, if you checked her journal, she cleared off a lot of people she doesn’t talk to anymore. you could’ve IM’d her y’know. #
• 17:40 @dreamsofstars if you’d gone to her instead of Alex, she WOULD HAVE. Try acting your age a bit for once in your life. #
• 17:51 @thinkalie That would be a valid argument if she’d ever TRIED to contact Aubrey since she left BtR. She hasn’t even IM’d me. #
• 17:59 @thinkalie ONE IM, that Aub was not at the comp to get. I’m not saying she’s blameless, but yes, it goes BOTH WAYS. Sarah could’ve done it. #
• 18:02 @thinkalie also, had she asked Aub, she would’ve refriended her. But she didn’t bother asking. she just assumed Aub didn’t want to be friend #
• 19:05 @thinkalie Fuck you. The passwords are all changed. Fuck. You. #

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• 09:31 @chibi_rizzy HAPPY RIFTIVERSARY TO YOU TOO! #
• 10:34 I think my fingers are going to lock up and fall off. Rift kids better appreciate this. #
• 10:59 @feliciaday damn, they get treated WELL, don’t they? #
• 11:35 @magistrate call a couple people and ask if they mind risking illness? #
• 12:36 @chibi_rizzy the cast list going up on the website. The website being up at all. And so forth. #

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So the thing is that I have dreams. I say I don’t, a lot, but it’s mostly because… I don’t know, when you’re always lucid and hardly ever actually IN the dream, and when they’re always JUST before you wake up, and even when you’re awake and thinking about getting up, they continue… it doesn’t seem like a proper dream. And I usually forget most of them pretty quickly. They tend to be epically cinematic, my dreams. Camera angles and narration and plot and characters. No random elephants floating through or anything. There might be things that seem a little odd after the fact (while I remember them, anyway), but they had their place in the story.

So a little while ago, I was having one of those dreams. The funny thing was that I KNOW I’ve had this dream before, even if I didn’t remember it. It wasn’t quite the same, but it had the same basic characters and premise. It ALMOST seemed like a sequel to the first dream, which I must’ve had YEARS ago, except that it opened exactly the same. I made a point to get up and come write out what I remembered right away, and I actually managed to capture the plot.

So, here was my dream.

Three teenagers – a small geeky boy, a larger, quite intelligent hacker boy, and a tomboyish girl who loves video games – use some cool technology to break into the house of this older woman who somehow has a beta copy of some game they want, even though she can hardly work a computer. There are discs everywhere, so the big kid starts to try to think of what the old lady would do when she came in (as she just got it this morning), which includes a moment of getting up and leaving thinking “where are my glasses?” because the kids saw her glasses on a trinket shelf in the hall on their way back to the office. While they’re searching, the cops show up, because apparently there was a silent alarm system. The cops are trying to break down the door, and the girl is trying to get the boys to leave, and they’re both not coming. She ends up jumping out a window into a slimy run-off pond behind the house, to hide. (For some reason, this time, the girl had a teddy bear with her when she jumped in. Don’t ask me.)

In the end, it turns out that both the boys got out fine, without having to jump into a slimy, gooey pond, and they laugh at her a bit when she shows up to their clubhouse so much later than them (because she had to wait for the cops to leave before she could sneak out). The big hacker kid managed to find the game, much to everyone’s delight, and they play it happily.

Now we get the overhead shot of their town, which is smallish and wooded and on the beach. Probably mid-to-Northern California. The girl, during the summer, works with her single dad at his little beach shop/hand car wash. She mostly does the car washes. Both of the boys help out regularly, and are mostly paid in free snacks, though they get some money, too. It’s a couple weeks later, and there’s some issue with the water lines on the property, which means that the car wash is down. Some rich tourist type comes through and DEMANDS a car wash. The girl’s dad says that literally, the only way he’s getting a car wash is if he pays extra for them to take it down to the self-serve car wash by the beach (which is working fine) and wash it there. The tourist guy, being all entitled and shit, says fine and that they’d better do that, then, hadn’t they? And pays in cash about twice what the dad would’ve charged him anyway.

So he pays and the girl (despite being only 15 – it was, like, two blocks – drives the car over to the self-serve. The boys come over, having seen her as they biked to the shop, and they chat a bit. Apparently, because hacker boy is a genius, he’s found a way to copy and burn the game from his computer. They have a list of names and emails of people they’re going to ship to, they just have to figure out how to charge, because what’s the fun in doing this if you haven’t made money?

While they’re talking, the girl’s dad shows up, having apparently run all the way there. The kids hide the list when he shows up. He asks them if they got their hands on the game and were planning to sell copies. They look a bit shocked. Turns out rich tourist guy was some sort of “security agent” employed by the game company, and (because this totally makes sense) he was going to find the people who took the game and lock them up for a very long time, as well as anyone who was planning on buying. The kids, understandably, freak out and say it wasn’t that big a deal, they were gonna charge, like, $5 mostly to cover the discs and the envelopes and the postage and stuff. The dad looks at the list and groans, because they WROTE IT OUT and then whips out a piece of paper and a pen and copies it down… incorrectly. Incorrect names AND email addresses, so that these guys won’t find anyone. He asks if they have a copy of the game, and the big kid pulls out the original. Dad takes it, and stuffs both into his pockets, telling the kids to hide the original, and not to leave until the guy’d got his car back, otherwise he’d be suspicious. And then he reminds them that they have to take the car back and pretend that they hadn’t seen him.

And then he takes off. The kids, very confused, finish washing the car, and the girl dries off and drives it back, playing perfectly innocent about her father being missing. The guy smirks, like he knows what that means, and goes off to call someone. The girl closes the shop and the boys show up, having biked. They have a little conference in the back room, trying to figure out what the hell’s going ON, before someone goes out front to get cold drinks and sees four guys in suits identical to the first guy coming towards the shop. They freak and slip out the back, and end up running down to the beach and, after a moment to make sure the big kid had written the list in his waterproof pen (as he had kept no record of the emails on his computer), swim as far out in the ocean as they dare, so they can almost hardly see land. It’s the middle of the day, so it’s not like they’re gonna get lost. This way, none of the suits will see them. The current washes them parallel to the beach (and a little bit towards it) and they wait until they’re pretty sure they can see the woods where the stream that leads to their clubhouse is (it’s so very hidden in the middle of the woods, though it’s really this little two-story wooden house with two rooms (one up, one down) and an outhouse, that amazingly has power, though it’s sort of iffy sometimes). They swim in, and stumble up the stream to their clubhouse, where they sort of flop and pass out from exhaustion.

When the girl wakes up, both of the boys are awake and listening to the radio – there’s something about her dad being captured, and them being accomplices, and they sort of just listen wide-eyed before the girl asks quietly, “What are we going to do?”

End episode, end dream.

I am so weird.

• 09:44 @magistrate Yes. #

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• 23:01 @reflectingsoul ♥ Love you #

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• 04:39 @reflectingsoul I love you. #
• 08:58 @magistrate Dreamhost clearly doesn’t want you poking around in its SQL. It’s like sexual harrassment or something. …Just saying words. #

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• 04:09 Rawr, and now the WoW servers are down until noon for maintenance. Fuckers. *pokes around on the forums* #
• 04:13 Oh, the FORUMS are down too? Well, isn’t that just peachy. *hates everything* #
• 04:28 @lionessblack I’m such a nerd. And now I go contemplate BLOGGING about how much I hate downtime. #
• 04:51 @lionessblack It’s a good outlet. Especially since it limits the length. *grumble* damn Weekly Maintenance… #
• 05:39 I really miss playing with Isaac and April. Randomly. *le sigh* #
• 06:33 @littlewings04 …that’s crazy. I love brainshare moments like that. #
• 08:34 @magistrate *SENDS HEALING VIBES DAMMIT* #
• 10:05 Shaun of the Dead is now broken. IN THE BEST WAY. #
• 11:06 Come on, chat. WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING? #
• 11:22 @chibi_rizzy Well, there are not people around. #
• 12:27 @magistrate …We have domain and server. Hit me up. #
• 13:08 Hey, twitter: www.beyondtherift.com/ #
• 18:27 @magistrate I’m still trying to figure out how to set it up. You might just have to use my login info. #

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• 11:15 tinyurl.com/baoqls Dear Obama staffers: …you’re too cute for words. Seriously. #
• 11:27 @magistrate …That is highly disturbing. #
• 11:30 @magistrate God, I am almost afraid to ask, but… soundtrack? #
• 11:43 @magistrate Yes. Yes it did. Which is why it’s SO CUTE. #
• 11:44 D: D: D: D: JACKSHADOW WHYYYYYY??? *weeps* #
• 22:17 @chibi_rizzy belatedly, at least you haven’t knocked someone up and then offed yourself? …Ivy, go away. #

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• 02:12 @lionessblack True, but no one gets context ever. :) #
• 02:15 @lionessblack IRON-CLAD BLOOD WAFFLES. #
• 03:26 GAH DAMN PATCHES. *kicks* I haven’t felt like levelling in over a week, and now I get fucking PATCHES. #
• 09:42 …Norwegian Satanic Code? #
• 09:56 My billfold! She has come home! #
• 18:53 @harbek what IS it? #
• 19:02 @magistrate Clearly. His scalpel is his best friend (Disclaimer: I have no idea what I’m talking about) #
• 19:35 @reflectingsoul Mattie sends his love to her. #

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• 09:18 Dear Father: STOP ASKING IF I’VE FOUND A JOB. I HAVE TO GET MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE FIRST. #
• 16:45 @lionessblack Yes. Yes we can. OMGCORALINE. #
• 01:46 TODAY IS THE BEST DAY EVER. You need no context. #

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• 00:28 @misterfriday Babel’s ice cream cures cancer. #
• 00:29 @misterfriday If you can see Babel, she can see you. If you can’t see Babel, you may be only seconds away from ice cream down your pants. #
• 00:32 @misterfriday Babel is not a girl of few words. But she is a girl of few things that lack adorable. And by few, I mean none. #
• 00:33 @misterfriday The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse actually live in Babel’s messenger bag, where they have tea parties every day. #
• 00:35 @misterfriday If you have five dollars and Babel has five dollars, you will buy Babel ice cream anyway. She’s just that adorable. #
• 00:39 @misterfriday If Babel is late, she gives time ice cream so it’ll back up for her. #
• 00:43 @misterfriday When playing rock paper scissors, Babel’s spork beats all three. #
• 00:44 @misterfriday A duck’s quack echoes when Babel is around, because she thinks it’s really cute sounding. #

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• 08:18 I fail at being a responsible adult. I know this. Yet I am still going to go hide in bed and not be responsible and adult. #
• 09:59 OMG CHRIS IS MY HERO #

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• 07:38 "Pete Tyler was run down by a car that was looking for SAM Tyler and gotten confused." -Goo #
• 15:04 @trollopfop Hear Hear, and Amen. All hail the Mas– I mean, President Obama! #
• 18:01 I wish I were not broke, so there could be the creation of the "laser screwdriver" to celebrate our new Lord and Master. Ah well. #

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• 02:46 @lionessblack It’s got quite a nice scent to it, I think. #
• 04:59 @yetregressing OF COURSE SILLY! YOU MAY ALL COME! #
• 20:12 @suddenlysey OMG WE SO SHOULD. A BUNCH OF NEW-MILLENNIUM HIPPIES PROTESTING VIETNAM. #
• 20:20 @suddenlysey OMG WE SHOULD. YES. #
• 20:23 @suddenlysey OMG LJ COMM. WE SHOULD START IT RIGHT NOW. #
• 20:29 @suddenlysey YOU START IT AND I’LL WRITE THE USERINFO ZOMG #
• 00:45 @chibi_rizzy *GASP* TWITTER, YOU H0R #

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• 11:43 @chibi_rizzy which stephen king story? #

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		I will marry Goo.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Nowhere in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 0 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a blue TARDIS.
		I will spend my days as a The Doctor, and live happily ever after.

Can anyone see the utter HILARITY in this? Swear to god, I didn’t do it on purpose. Just… woah.

• 16:00 @feliciaday the trouble with going into the world: it’s nice and sunny, but there are idiots. So, so many of them. #
• 19:46 oh my god THREAD OVERLOAD. In a good way. Also a new headvoice journal, le sigh. #
• 20:39 @chibi_rizzy I keep tellin’ ya, twitter just loves me and hates everyone else. #
• 22:18 @chibi_rizzy I did NOT! (But there may have been a blowjob in the back alley…) #

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• 16:14 @magistrate …Oxytocin? #
• 16:23 @chibi_rizzy BECAUSE TWITTER LOVES ME MOSTEST! #
• 20:01 @magistrate …. you’re editing out AVACADOS? #
• 23:23 @dreamsofstars @thinkalie and April sends kisses to them both. #

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• 19:46 @misterfriday IT JUST WANTS TO BE LOVED #
• 00:09 I don’t really like ketchup. #

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• 21:50 @thinkalie any objection is overruled. #

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WE MADE HIT THOUGH COUNTRY SCIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and none has oiited aow rf paseedout.

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• 00:24 AUUUGH JACK DO NOT TRY TO MAKE COFFEE EVER EVER EVER STAY AWAY FROM THE COFFEE MAKER LET ME AND IANTO DO IT, KAY? #

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• 07:25 making badly-drawn comics is fun. Even moreso when they’re badly-drawn SILENT HILL comics. #
• 23:41 given three of my rift kids twitters. @matwallace @taylouise @annieglow. crazy, i am. #

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HNT - my lovely elbow

HAPPY HALF-NEKKID THURSDAY!

Yeah, my friend L came up with a script version, which she noted would probably be better as a comic. Thus, I provide, a year and a half after it was written. :) Basically, while she was playing Silent Hill 4, at some point while she was with Eileen, she forgot how to make Henry run. That’s… pretty much what it would’ve looked like if Henry and Eileen had been able to, y’know, react to the strange things that L was doing instead of running.